Due~

Thanks God..my prayer had been answered so quickly..Or maybe i should say I HATE YOU, GOD..for giving me that kind of answer..sigh..that's not the answer i want..but i know you are right..This is something i deserve..I'm the one who did wrong 1st..and it's time to face the consequences or should i say karma..I do believe in karma actually..So,i'm defense-less..direct sentence to guilty and willingly accept the punishment..But..i promise i'll be good from now onwards..I just want to say a few more last words to him..Plsssssss....

"I'm closing my heart forever..Thanks for letting me know earlier..and did not torture me..Don't feel bad or guilty cause you did not do any wrong..and yet you did much more..You let me know that what a person can really do when really in love..I'm the one who don't know how to appreciate it..So, I'll let someone else to appreciate you..You always ask whether are you really the guy for me..and I'm going to say yes..I know the answer when i stayed at Puchong a few days..A simple meal yet full of happiness makes me feel like This is it..! I don't want to know other people anymore..I just want to know more bout you..I'm so glad that you did not gave me up last year as i become a better person this year..I will always remember the time i had with you..Don't worry..we will still be friend..I wish..you will find the hottest and sweetest girl and have all the happiness and no worries bout me..i will find mine too.."

Again..Thank You , God..for letting me say this few words..and i promised you I won't write any depressed post anymore in this period of time..I will live my life happily..and I again promise I'll be good..be nice..be sweet..And remember to bless the one that i loved..okay..=)

just like a TATTOO..

YOU WILL ALWAYS BE IN MY HEART LIKE A TATTOO..~

HOW I REMEMBER THE WAY YOU TOUCH ME..~

HOW YOU HUG ME DURING MY SLEEP..~

HOW YOU GENTLY KISS MY LIP..~

HOW YOU TELL ME THAT YOU WILL STAND BY ME NO MATTER WHAT..~

HOW YOU PROMISE THAT YOU'LL LOVE ME EVEN THOUGH I'M IN THE WRONG..~

AND HOW YOU GOING TO MAKE ME FEEL LIKE A PRINCESS EVERYDAY..~

I'M LAYING ON MY BED NOW..~

WAITING FOR MY PRAYER TO BE ANSWER..~

HOPEFULLY TO BE IN YOUR ARMS AGAIN..~

I GUESS I'M NOT READY TO SET YOU FREE YET..~

CAUSE I DON'T WANT TO MISS A THING BOUT YOU.~

最愛最恨都是你

我的離開

對你卻是自在

能不能捲土重來

能不能我等你回來
你的孤獨

對我卻是酸楚
愛走到末路

你要結束我還想付出
能不能最後的吻

能不能幸福沒有傷痕
愛你愛到恨了你

恨你讓我如此愛
我恨你 我恨你

但是我更愛你
愛你愛到恨了你

恨你讓我如此愛
不恨你 不恨你

那是不夠愛你
最愛最恨都是你

You are the best and sweetest things i ever had...

This is something I hope I can mend back your heart and memories..I want you to have the best memories of us..not those awful and horrible memories..Today is 4yrs and 3months and 28days..we've been together on this road..You are the longest relationship i ever had so far..and during this journey..it's alot alot alot of joy and painful things happened before..But,we did survived it and here comes the day that i brought back the bad memories for you..where i feel very terrible...cause i crushed your heart again...

Looking back the photos make me recall back alot of things..make me realised that you were always the one there..when i needed someone..Eventhough we argued like hell before...eventually we sort things out..and you are the only place that i can tell everything out..i really mean everything...You always say maybe you are the not man for me..So,am i the right girl for you..who did all the terrible things on you..who always try to give you up..when you are the one that try to mend back the relation..Sigh...

This is us when we are 17yrs old..still normal friend...

This is us when we are in 3months relation..

This is us when 8months relationship..our 1st trip to Port Dickson on Xmas..

You always love snapping when i'm sleeping...=D

This is the big photo frame that I received for my bbday=)

This is us in 2009...

Me and You in 2010....

All i wanna is thank you for being part of my life..and making my days like princess..and always be there for me when i needed someone to talk things about..Days without you will be entirely different..cause we are so used to be together..in and out..Things that i feel regretted not doing is loving you with all my heart..and making you the happiest guy in this world..and our trip to Langkawi..I just want to clarify is what you've seen..I cannot deny..But what i can tell you..I really love you..and I tried my best to cherish you as much as I can..But,that's too many patches and holes..I guess even you..yourself also start to feel fed up with all these holes..but still..I hope you'll always remember all the wonderful times we had together...Sincerely,I wish that you will find someone who can really give you happiness and happy memories..but please do remember ours too..okay! Love you now , always and forever..=)

HELLO~!

I'm not sure why..but these few days i don's feel like to blog anymore...I"M NOT SAYING THAT I"M GOING TO ABANDON MY BLOG..OKAY! just that..things had been sooooooo busy....mid term is coming next week..and i'm trying to save sister's relationship..THIS is the most breaking part...today..a fella said to me that..life is always HARD..! i can't bear it..and I CRIED...DAMN U..DIU LEI LOU MOU...why can't u pin point something else..cause it made my tears roll down my cheek...and i had my eye liner on!!! FUCK U~!

I know life haven't been easy for me...i tried so hard everyday to mend back the relation that i always i want to...but..it just doesn't seem to get my way..sigh...and..SIGH...i just don't know how to explain it anymore...i don't want to make it like IT'S ONLY MY LIFE THAT HARD..i know all of u out there having a hard life too in every part...just that...arrgggggghhhh......=(

I WANT TO HAVE A VACATION....!!!!!

Happy Mother's Day~

Firstly,I'm very sorry because I've abandon my blog for so long..and here's is my Mother's Day..I had a great celebration this year..cause i managed to celebrate with my both family...wheeeee..this is the kind of happiness that i just hope for...seeing a smile on their faces is my biggest achievement..

This is my mummy and daddy!

Family photo

My beloved mummy cutting fruit cake!

The cake that shared by 4 siblings just for dearest mummy =)

My elder sis n me share the bill..Hopefully mummy like the dishes..!

This is my 2nd family..my god-mother and god-brothers!

Aint it sweet~~!

Kiwi fruit cake...~!

Family is the always the place that u can run back when u are feeling sad or lost..They will always stand by you and tell you what's wrong and right..I can't say that I"m always happy with my family..because everyone sure have one or two arguements..But..somehow it will mend back itself..Some people might have bad relation with their family..But it doesn't change the fact that your mummy is the one who give birth to you and have to suffer 9months for it..and your daddy is the one who make you and feed you with food the day you born...So, love them like nobody else..Because they are your parent..and make them proud..! =)

~Have A Nice Day~

The missing me...

Hello..how are you today...? Sorry for not updating my blog lately..been busying..i mean reali busy..pack pack pack..so i got no time to blog..Neway..Thanks for those who concerned me...apparently my last post was quite emotional..Neway..no worries...I'm dealing with it quite well..Hopefully it will be a bright and shining day again...Same to you all out there..Will try to update as soon as possible..

-XOXO-

Understand...

I don't hope you can accept me..
But i do hope you will understand me..
Please don't judge too fast..
I cant't tell you how hard my life have been..
Cause I don't want you to think that I'm making up stories..
And please don't push me away cause i needed someone to talk..
I love talking to you..You should know that..
Just that you don't talk to me anymore..
I know nothing about you anymore..
Is like i'm a stranger to you..
I'm jealous of your friends..I'm not sure wheter they know how much bout you..
But i bet they know much more than me..
Maybe in your heart..I'm not mature enough to share your burden..
Or you might see me as a 'problem kid'..
But I do hope to listen to your problems..not only problems..everything about you..
Joy and sorrow..
I admit that I'm jealous of you..What i want..I have to earned it..
I have to work very hard to earn what i want..
But you..
You don't have to..Just a snap..You got everything you want..
People around you love you more than me..cause you are much prettier and smarter..
I just a normal and rebellious kid..
But I don't mind..cause I love you..
I do hope to see you happy..
I really need someone to talk..but it seems that it'll be onli kept inside my heart..
That's no one I can talk to anymore..
I'm sorry..
=(

FUCK IT..!

Fuck..Fuck..Fuck...forgive me if i'm rude..is just that i tried to change my layout..to give a new look..and ooopsss...everything lost..i was like so freak out just now..because i lost the layout box in my dashboard..and i was like WTF..! Every columns gone missing..Luckily with the help of Blogger..I get to solve my problem..and now my blog is damn white and plain..like going to funeral...Fuck it..I guess will need some time to fix it back..BIG SIGH...

Ice Kacang Puppy Love!

I bet everyone of you have tried puppy love before..I don't believe that no one ever not been thru a teenage life where you experience puppy love..Cause i think is a normal thing..cause when we are young..i guess most of us don't know what's real love is..My definition of puppy love is you think you love this guy, flirt around, then sort of dating around..den you both split..for god knows reason why..and you are happy again..finding someone else..=)

Somehow this movie, the definition of the title doesnt seems to be mine definition cause in this movie, Ah Niu felt in love with Lee SinJe when they were very young..and he love her till they graduated from high school..I don't think this is called puppy love..it has no reason to be called puppy love..cause I personally think that it should be call first love..Cause what they have is real love..He care for her so much that he could sacrifice his life...

Overall,this movie is better than woo-hoo..I love the part where this fatty girl keep trying to chase Victor..Her every scene is just so hilarious till my tears burst out..Seriously, is worth to watch and please support malaysian movie okay..=) Beside that,You get to see many famous malaysian singer too..like Fish Leong and Gary Chow..You might think back your puppy love's experience while watching the movie..woots..!

RATE : 7/10