mixed feeling...

i'm not sure what am i thinking or what am i feeling now..alot of feeling mixed together..depressed , sad , loved , not being loved , disappointed , feeling stupid , happy or etc etc...i just wanna write out what's on my mind now..

how am i ever know that whether true love does exist? or it dont? how am i ever to believe that love will stay forever and will not change? does love at first sight exist?? is it true that...when u started a relation..it will be as sweet as honey..even sweeter than that..and when relation turn to 4yrs and above it become a routine..or more like a habit in your life? does love still exist that time..is the romantic and lovey dovey moment is gone for good? only left is the duration that exist between u n her..the main reason u cant let him / her go is because u 2 been together for 7 yrs? not because that u think that u still love him / her?

sometimes i'm thinking that it would be very nice to be loved by someone..cause this moment of time..u r a princess that is on top of the world..but when u loved someone that much..somehow..it would be heart tearing when u learned that what u try to do to make him happy is not working..and tears will come and play the role...alot of negative thoughts..alot of emo-ing times..or when u found out that he's not the lovey dovey person anymore who loved u so so much when u 2 started dating..where he die trying to fullfill what u want..whenever u r in troubles , he'll be the 1st to come to save..

love actually is a very complicated things..or a very wonderful things..or should i say who am i to judge it..when i am oso one of the victim that fell in the trapped of love...i will continue to find and when i confirm what's love..i shall share with u guys..or maybe u guys can share it with me?? thanks~~

i guess i need a good sleep now..sorry for writing nonsense here...haha..is my blog..so i guess i have the right to write whatever i want! tata!