Complicated Being

If male think that female is a complicated being..Then think about yourself..males..what trigger female to be complicated..Is it too simple that the male gotta make it complicated only? Females seek only security and happiness from male..A female that been waiting for a long time to have a real status and a real relationship is getting tired even though the female still love the male..The female know that she will regret one day..But female knows that is the best..Cause situation will always be the same..argue and misunderstanding..So, what's the point of waiting till the big day? when things is going to remain the same..Female need to feel being loved..Not picking a call from male sounded drunk which the female not sure also..and talking something random which is really making the female disappointed not angry..Female don't know where is she standing in the male's heart..How come almost 5 years and the male can't accept the female laughter..each time when the female laugh too loud in cinema..the male gave a weird staring and bad comment..sigh.. Yes, female is talkative as well..But seems like the male is the quiet wan..Aiskz..Wrong chemistry female assume..Female chose to intern somewhere near the male because female wanted to see male as often as possible but it turn out to be stress for the male..Somehow, the male was keep going out with friend before the female coming up..is seems that the male is going to prison once the female is up..female gave up the choice that she wanted to be with the male is somehow felt stupid now..How come last time the male can travel purposely from Damansara to Bangi just to bring the female to dinner and now the male keep saying he's busy with assignment..where halfway of assignment-ing..the male went out for yum cha session.. shouldn't the male rush to finish his work and come back earlier? So, ended up, the male can't be back on friday night where he promised to be back for movie..and then came back late in the Saturday noon..and gotta go back on early Sunday night..But, the females did not complain nor angry for several weeks till now..Yes, female remember once that the male make her angry..so the male purposely bought a kfc dinner from Seremban for the female in Bangi and went back Seremban again..it was touched..how come male only can be more caring when the female is angry? Anyhow,female waits no more..Perhaps is just that the male don't realize that his heart is already changed..Female did her best to love the male but she pour out too much love to sea..which can't be collect back..and female wish the best for the male..

Joash..Is ur BIG day~!

Dear Joash Wee..

Happy Birthday to you..

Happy Birthday to you..

Happy Birthday to Joash..

You smell like one two..!

HAHAHA...~!

I wanna dedicated all the wishes I could think of to you now...

~May you have fun and enjoy everyday in Heaven with your family

~Have a great great great time

~You'll always be missed deeply

~I miss your smile

After learning bout your accident..it does really gave some impact on me..Where I feel that life is short and we only have limited time to do what we wanna do..So from that day onwards...I try not to be angry over alot of matters..I enjoy my life to the max with no regret..I tend to be happy all the times even though im sad..I never stress over something that supposedly I should feel very stress..Always think that every problem can be solved and is not the end of the world yet..I try not to roll any tears even im sad cause I know eventually it will be a bright day again..

THANKS,Joash...

Seriously..eventhough we are not close friend..but just ordinary friend..I don't know why I really feel that you never leave us before..I know you are watching us from up there...! Take care...!

Happy Birthday again..I'm very jealous of you..Cause you'll be forever young...! =D

Mr.Alcohol and Man~

Alcohol is one kind of drink that will make u happy and forget about your problems..that's what I always heard from people..But is this true..? Consuming alcohol will make us more happy? How come when I'm sad..the more I drink the more I feel sad..and the more I'll consume..and ended KO..Am I not right? or Mr.Alcohol love bullying on me..LOL....Sometimes I wonder when will I quit drinking..The answer is likely to be NEVER..That's what my friend replied..='( I'M SO NOT AN ALCOHOLIC..okay..Mr.Alcohol can u make me to hate u..

Recently , I found out that I have a lot of 'good' peoples around me..What I'm trying to say is..He's good in term of telling me to take care myself..to have precaution on the others..but at the same time trying to light up some fire causing my days to be gloomy and moody..This is so sickening..Is there any sincerity and honesty left out there anymore..? I mean being too honest is not really good because honesty always hurt..but still I would hope people around me would be honest to me..Rather than letting me know the last minute and KA BOOM...This will be a very torturing moments..learning the truth last minute when you already put so much effort.. So , please hit me with the truth..I can take it and I will forgive...

Sigh...Is there any man out there with a little bit of sincerity and honesty still? How come when a man lost something..Only then , they will appreciate and try to have it back..Is this normal? You gotta try to lose something first only then you regret and go hunt for it back..Sigh...Love is one simple yet confuse thing..Is there any simple yet everlasting love? Or is it when a relationship is too simple..then that's no sparkle in the relationship anymore? Going for a exciting yet dangerous relationship always win simple yet safe relationship..I wonder why...just like what every people say..'男人不坏，女人不爱‘..in english means man not bad..woman don't like..=P

~ciaos~

Due~

Thanks God..my prayer had been answered so quickly..Or maybe i should say I HATE YOU, GOD..for giving me that kind of answer..sigh..that's not the answer i want..but i know you are right..This is something i deserve..I'm the one who did wrong 1st..and it's time to face the consequences or should i say karma..I do believe in karma actually..So,i'm defense-less..direct sentence to guilty and willingly accept the punishment..But..i promise i'll be good from now onwards..I just want to say a few more last words to him..Plsssssss....

"I'm closing my heart forever..Thanks for letting me know earlier..and did not torture me..Don't feel bad or guilty cause you did not do any wrong..and yet you did much more..You let me know that what a person can really do when really in love..I'm the one who don't know how to appreciate it..So, I'll let someone else to appreciate you..You always ask whether are you really the guy for me..and I'm going to say yes..I know the answer when i stayed at Puchong a few days..A simple meal yet full of happiness makes me feel like This is it..! I don't want to know other people anymore..I just want to know more bout you..I'm so glad that you did not gave me up last year as i become a better person this year..I will always remember the time i had with you..Don't worry..we will still be friend..I wish..you will find the hottest and sweetest girl and have all the happiness and no worries bout me..i will find mine too.."

Again..Thank You , God..for letting me say this few words..and i promised you I won't write any depressed post anymore in this period of time..I will live my life happily..and I again promise I'll be good..be nice..be sweet..And remember to bless the one that i loved..okay..=)

最愛最恨都是你

我的離開

對你卻是自在

能不能捲土重來

能不能我等你回來
你的孤獨

對我卻是酸楚
愛走到末路

你要結束我還想付出
能不能最後的吻

能不能幸福沒有傷痕
愛你愛到恨了你

恨你讓我如此愛
我恨你 我恨你

但是我更愛你
愛你愛到恨了你

恨你讓我如此愛
不恨你 不恨你

那是不夠愛你
最愛最恨都是你

Understand...

I don't hope you can accept me..
But i do hope you will understand me..
Please don't judge too fast..
I cant't tell you how hard my life have been..
Cause I don't want you to think that I'm making up stories..
And please don't push me away cause i needed someone to talk..
I love talking to you..You should know that..
Just that you don't talk to me anymore..
I know nothing about you anymore..
Is like i'm a stranger to you..
I'm jealous of your friends..I'm not sure wheter they know how much bout you..
But i bet they know much more than me..
Maybe in your heart..I'm not mature enough to share your burden..
Or you might see me as a 'problem kid'..
But I do hope to listen to your problems..not only problems..everything about you..
Joy and sorrow..
I admit that I'm jealous of you..What i want..I have to earned it..
I have to work very hard to earn what i want..
But you..
You don't have to..Just a snap..You got everything you want..
People around you love you more than me..cause you are much prettier and smarter..
I just a normal and rebellious kid..
But I don't mind..cause I love you..
I do hope to see you happy..
I really need someone to talk..but it seems that it'll be onli kept inside my heart..
That's no one I can talk to anymore..
I'm sorry..
=(

FUCK IT..!

Fuck..Fuck..Fuck...forgive me if i'm rude..is just that i tried to change my layout..to give a new look..and ooopsss...everything lost..i was like so freak out just now..because i lost the layout box in my dashboard..and i was like WTF..! Every columns gone missing..Luckily with the help of Blogger..I get to solve my problem..and now my blog is damn white and plain..like going to funeral...Fuck it..I guess will need some time to fix it back..BIG SIGH...

爱。。。

我要学放弃你。。对不起。。

Does 1 Malaysian still exist??

Yesterday , i was playing msn..and suddenly my friend nudged me and said..

Ryan : hey , take a look at this blog..is a must read post..this guy damn racist wei..

Me : Urm , i lazy lar..playing msn bowling ni..haha

Ryan : nononoooo....is a must read...

Me : okok...

So , i clicked the link and open it..and then , when i saw the topic..oh well..is just something normal..like normal politic topic..so i continue reading..and then when i see the 1st sentence..my eyes ball and jaw..drop..is TOTALLY DROP..! walau eh..i have never see such a racist guy before in my life..and yet he dare to voice it out in his blog..After reading it , i feel that i must blog this out..to share with you guys out there..

Is like he's saying we chinese and indian should be taken back our citizenship..we don't belong in Malaysia..so does this mean that we should be send back to China and Indian..? WTF...and then he was saying that we the chinese and indian should not be given chance to vote and all the non-muslim parties should be banned..WTF again..the most WTF part is..he said our batu cave statue and the penang buddha statue should be demolish just because they are bigger than the mosque..OMFG..~! Seriously , is he the guy that provoking everyone to rebel?? To cause our country a big mess and not longer in peaceful?? I know that we are given the freedom to talk but still..we should only say what's right and not keep brain washing people's brain with negative thing..

I won't say our country is that peaceful BUT every country does have their own issue..but still we Malaysian still get to go shopping and partying around..LOL..Not like those countries that booming here and there..BOOM BOOM BOOM..all the children living in fear..they'll never know what's SHOPPING CENTER , PLAYGROUND and so on..I don't think anyone of us would want this situation to happen..Me as a chinese girl , who have alot of MALAY and INDIAN friends..I feel that's no need to have discrimination..as we are all same human being..I talk and joke to anyone i know..from light brown skin to brown skin and black skin..except those peoples that are bad..Sometimes i even think why am i chinese..and not other races..cause the INDIANs ,they have long eye lashes..I envy the most..the MALAYs ,they all have beautiful eyes while i have small eyes..=(

Honestly , i think the blog writer should have remove the post and apologize to everyone..It's really disappointing and heart breaking reading the post..I don't want our country to end before year 2012..And yet , if you see the comment of the post..is damn funny wei...i can't stop laughing myself either...even he's own kind don't support him as well..I'm not sure what's his motive but i'm pretty sure he might create some issues over here..and yet there goes our 1 MALAYSIA...Here is the link to the post..

http://aminchenor.blogspot.com/2009/05/tuntutan-buat-kerajaan-malaysia.html

FML..~!

i'm feeling very sad this moment..i shouldnt be blogging in the 1st place..cause i'm suppose to be on my study table and study for my finals..i guess this time i'm so going to screw it..awwwhhh....heart been broken and torn into pieces..need to tape it back..but sadly , i dunno how mend it alone...too much mix emotion this time..joy because i got invitations ticket to date night movie from NUFFNANG..thanks NUFFNANG..my 1st time winning movie ticket from NN..hehe..sad because heart is broken..love is unfound..and lost..stress because havent finish study for finals..feeling lonely...this is so not happening to me...FML..DIU NIA SING....~! ahhhhhhhhhh!!!!!

M.I.A status

hello...people...just to let you know that mEEEEE will be missing for at least 2 weeks...cause of my FINALS EXAM..i must really start studying already as i havent get to focus on my book yet..damn sad case wei...sometimes i was thinking what's the point of exam..when u study so hard and keep memorize..and then after exam..not for long..u'll eventually forget about it..LOL..
like now , things that i study in uni , i'm not sure that i can apply it when i come out work next time or not..cause i find it quite not relevan with the job scope..LOL...or maybe i havent come out work yet..so i dunno wheter is useful or not...neway , exam means KILLING MORE TREES! hahaha....how i wish i dont need to go thru exam..i mean just study will be nice..lol..people might say that exam is where u can test your knowledge reach to which level..but for me..exam is where you keep strunggling and memorize and study study..den after that..BYE BYE BOOKS! =P
sigh...I NEVER LIKE STUDYING AT ALL...but if i dont study..i find it too early to come out work in the society with no certificate..*though i always work as freelancer...LOL..hmm...alot of people told me that studying is better than working..but somehow..i still find working is better than studying..!! LOL...*pat to myself...i still got another half year to study..and another half year to do intern..then i'm done for good..! no more study in my life! hahaha...*now u can see how much i hate study..
during my form 5 , after i finish SPM , i was telling myself that i dont want to study anymore..and go apply for air stewardess...because i knew that my result was going to be SUCK..but at the end , i got offer to form 6..so i took it and continue study..and then after my STPM , i told myself again i'm not going to continue study anymore cause i find it study is reali torturing..this is because during STPM..every night i study till i cried..i feel very stress..normal lar..when u put so much effort of cause u hope to get good result de mar..but i fear that i cant..! awwwhhh....so after STPM , i work half a year in SUNWAY PYRAMID...and apply for air stewardess in singapore airline..hehe..i got the interview..and at the same time i got my STPM result..oh well , the result was satisfying and i got offer into the local uni that i wanted sumore..so i did not went for the interview..right now..im just hoping to finish studying faster!! GOD BLESS ME~! i just want to pass the exam..=(

SOWIE TO MS.SAGA=(

CAR CRASHED and GHOST KACAU IN CAMERON HIGHLAND...~~~!!!!! =(=(=( SUCK SUCK SUCK....!!! NEED TO FORK OUT $$$$...SOBSSSSSSS...!!!!!

HAPPY BIRTHDAY TO LADYVEEEEE =D 'n' Hie to IPOH~

LADYV just passed her birthday not too long ago..that is 5th March..this year..i can say is the worst birthday so far..sigh..cause it involved alot of tears and angry-ness...and disappointment..heart pain and alot of mixed feeling..=(=(=(...

But i managed to pull myself back together..and went to sing k with my lovely sister and cool aunties..=)=)=)...had a very unhappy dinner with my families...cause got into some arguement with mommy that breaks my heart totally..=~(...i just don't understand her..sigh..later on,we went to FOODTIAM..had some drinks and chit chat with aunties and cousin..which gave my heart a peace..i cut 2 cakes this year..wheeeeee...!

That's a thing that makes me feel happy..is when i opened my mail box today..it's SPAMMED with 295 mails from facebook..and half of it is from my frens who wished me happy bbday..wheeeeeee.....the next day..i went to IPOH with my sis and aunties..i reali enjoyed this trip alot..as i get to visit 3 caves and ate IPOH famous food..hehe...=D...i just noticed that myself gained 3kgS?? cause i hardly fits into my jeans..! OMG..OMG...=O

this is happy bbday song from GREEN BOX

my sis and mE

the dinner..YUMMY*

me and COOL PEGGY

mE and cutie ester

i'm 70 yrs old~~@@

before IPOH , we had lunch at AMPANG..

'kai chau'

'yim kuk kai'

'chu keok chou'

KIM BALI @ IPOH

Thai Lou Sang

She's doing the 'paper' to wrap the lou sang..=O

LOU AR LOU AR!!!

SEE...this is the lou sang...NOM NOM...!

The Famous actor and actresses from HONG KONG..

we waited quite long for the HAKKA MEE!

my aunt climbed all the way..and i gave up half way..lol..

IPOH tau geh

hor fun..very nice..! smooth..!

the chicken..is very tasty..=D

the chicken feet!

a very famouse tau fu fa stall..alot of cars lining up for it..

is smooth and the portion is little...

the big bear bear from IPOH...is not mine..it belong to my aunty! =(=(=(

p/s : IPOH make meeeeeee fat...@@ ...but i enjoyed the trippppp alotttt..wwheeeeeee....good day to everyone!!!